Do you know how you mean to wash your hair, but you keep procrastinating it, whilst feeling the greasiness all over your hands as you make your hair each day? How you don’t intentionally delay the process at the end of which your hair will feel like new again, you’re just too lazy to actually get down to doing it?
Now that I have finally done so, I can’t help but run my hands through my silky soft hair. This is not as normal or non-terrible as it may seem, for very many reasons. Number one. I was and am supposed to be studying right now, but the itch that possesses my hand every now and then has reared its beautifully ugly head, and me, with my almost nonexistent self-control and will power have found myself in front of the laptop again.
That in itself is not that bad a thing; rather, it gives me an opportunity to stretch my fingers. Perhaps what makes it all the worse is how I am not studying for the approaching exams. Days are passing me by in a blur. Why, it felt like only yesterday that the school year started. All of a sudden, I have been thrust into a world where you’re expected to be smart and responsible and a future seer, all at once.
I am looking up colleges, studying for tests, studying from an exam point of view, and juggling between health issues, nearly all the time. I am exhausted, and of course, have the omnipresent moodiness to show for it.
I do not know when this will end, to be honest with you. On some level, I don’t think I want it to end; for it ending will mean the end of life as a schoolgirl, and being a college girl does not sound nearly as much fun. Add in the fact how I am not sure what course I should study, and you’ve got an explosive mix on your hands which goes by my name. (That’s not all the reasons. Add in math being a bully.)
Some good news includes how I finally tackled my fear of the second chapter in my math textbook; Inverse Trigonometric Functions. I sat down and did the examples, followed by the Miscellaneous Exercise (which is at the end of every chapter and is basically a set of questions which are there basically to check your understanding of the chapter. They also contain questions which are usually more difficult and a level higher than all the other exercises of the chapter.)
I will unfortunately have to stop here, for biology is calling my name. I need to study Translation, the Human Genome Project, and DNA Fingerprinting, the last few topics in the sixth chapter in the textbook, i.e. Moleculecular Basis of Inheritance. After studying this, I think I might read the next chapter, i.e. Evolution. After that, I have to study math. That’s a fair bit of work, I suppose.
I think I will try to post short posts every day. Not to spam, lol. Rather, because the whole process is quite therapeutic. I suppose writing was always soothing for me, but something about letting go of daily frustrations without actually giving yourself away is strangely beautiful.
Song for today is Staying Up by The Neighbourhood.