Unpaid Debt.

She looked at me with eyes like the stormy sea.
She threw another careless glance at me. “The fee.”
“What fee?” I was flabbergasted, for I wasn’t aware.
She made a sound of annoyance. “The fee for my care.”
“The fee, for you to be anew. The fee I require,
Is to be paid by your soul, to my soul. After it is done.”
She finished, her hands by her sides. Why, I was stunned.
“I know not of what you speak, you have my apologies.”
I was polite and gentlemanly, for I knew no other way;
She huffed and puffed, and I feared the way
She would exact her wrath, for she looked dainty
But I am sure, those arms could break a boulder.
“The fee, is you understanding. Once you have,
You will understand how and why your soul calls to mine, the way it does.
When you do, I will get my fee; in full.”

-×-

Studying for a physics test at 2 in the night is not what I had in mind at the beginning of this weekend! Damn sick body, you throw everything out of whack! Instead of completing things, 1.25 of my weekend was spent sleeping. Why? Methotrexate and Nausea are having a very loud affair.

Hope your weekend was better than mine!

Love,
Sky xoxo.

P.S.: Honest feedback? I really want to get better at writing good poetry.

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Something Here.

I might be looking for something in the ashes of yesterday, but what I seek, I do not know.
From the dark furies of that what I call past, I must emerge victorious, and try and grow.
For it is human nature to be afraid of the unknown, but the known is not any less frightening.
I must be fearless and walk the path which leads to salvation, for none else is more forgiving.

I have lost something which once meant everything; while the nature of it is still quite unclear.
Was it something adscititious? Something I could do without? Or was it something more intrinsic;
Whose loss I still feel in the depth of my very skin and bones?

One thing I still am sure of; that it was something here.

xxxx

This was something I wrote in a very short amount of time. I have no idea what this is, but I still thought it was a decent attempt at Something (with a capital S).

Love,
Sky xoxo.

P.S.: Do tell me what you thought of my little attempt at Something.

Exactly One Week Later…

… you are still face to face with the new (sort of) twelfth grader who still finds it very difficult to believe that this is her last year of school, after which she will have to go to college. Oh god. Horrifying thought.

On an almost same level of horror is the way our school teachers are pushing us! Triple Physics! Triple Chemistry! This is because the math sir has gone for checking board papers, and the checking process won’t get over at least for another week, and the English teacher is out of the country (she still completed a few chapters before she left, we had English classes just a day after our finals ended – YES, I KNOW!).

So, while it is highly obvious that I’m completely spent, I am going to enlist all of my tasks for today and the weekend that follows:

  • Physics: 1. Complete the numericals of the first chapter.
    2. Study the first chapter for the test on Monday.
  • Chemistry: 1. Complete the exercises of the first chapter.
    2. Study the first chapter for the test on Tuesday.
    3. Complete practical notebook.
  • Math: 1. Complete the exercises of the third chapter in the notebook.
  • Biology: 1. Read up on specific topics.

As one can clearly see, I have my hands full. I was up till three this morning, trying to do physics numericals [(stopped when I reached the 16th problem) total were 24].

Well, I am trying to stay on top of my work, and so far, I clearly have my shit together far more than I did in eleventh (TOUCHWOOD). I am hoping to be more efficient, and get lots of studying and practice done, because I need it!

I also bought reference books for math and physics, because I need to practice both really, really well. While I don’t suck very, very much in physics, I am terrible at numericals (’cause math), and need to work on that. Which is why, unlike 11th grade, I have made it my mission to always solve textbook questions once the chapter is done at school, and do extra practice whenever I get time (like on the weekends). The math book is giving me the heebie-jeebies, as it is just a smidge thicker than the Deathly Hallows (but that was something I liked, and this is, well, math). But, but! THIS IS JUST ONE VOLUME! Ugh, it gives me a panic attack.

I had quite a good day at math tuition today, much to my surprise. I could easily do the questions set us by sir, and the two boy wonders finished after me! While I know that is an extremely mean thing to say or think, I have always felt bad about my inability to do math. It does not help that these two guys are so good at math. However, this year, one of my best friends from school also joined class! While she is almost like me at the subject, she is really good with this chapter, which leaves me the weakest kid.

Today was pretty good! My friend RS (who’s an OC member for a MUN happening in my city), had come with other MUN people to give an orientation of sorts to the kids at my school, which ensured that we got two periods free. The next two periods were Chemistry Practicals, but there was some problem with the Sodium Thiosulphate solution we were using in the experiment, so ma’am suggested we do another experiment (Salt Aanalysis to be precise), but everybody groaned and whined so loud, we got a free period instead! The first four periods were boring – double chem, doubly phy. That was all for school, today.

After I go off from here, I will go complete an exercise in math, followed by the chemistry practical notebook. I will sleep after finishing physics homework, and after doing a few questions in chemistry. Guess I won’t be going to bed anytime soon!

Love,
Sky xoxo.

P.S.: In the space of one week, I have also finished an anime series, finished a half of another, and read maybe two stories online. Yes, me is great. :3
P.P.S.: If you are a resident of India, and have nothing better to do in June but still want to spend it semi-productively, please do make it a point to check out the site for the MUN I was talking about. All details are available on their Facebook page. Please check it out! While not originally meant to be a sponsored post, it has totally become one… for this, RS, I demand to be paid in full (in pizza, of course).
P.P.P.S.: Have a good day/night! x

 

 

 

What’s Playing? #1

As I mentioned in the post before this, I will start a chain of these posts, where I list some cool songs I have discovered and really liked. These are not only recent releases, as I have a tendency to find old songs I love and listen (also watch) on repeat. So, I hope this works out fine!

  1. Is There Somewhere
    Halsey
    I fell in love with this one, there’s just something about her voice in this song. It reminds me of Kurt’s voice in Something In The Way.
  2. Colors (Stripped)
    Halsey
    So I think everyone can tell that I love Halsey (which I do, I mean, how can I not?), but even though I fell in love with the original (AND THE VIDEO OMG I DIED!), this version just sounds crazy. Crazy amazing. Please, just hear this if you have not already. (There’s something reaaaaaalllllllyyyy amazing she says in the song. I’m not saying what – hear it yourself. Also, it might not be that amazing, but you know, at this point, I think I would find anything she does as super cool.)
  3. Daddy Issues
    The Neighbourhood
    Please do not go by the name. I have fallen in love with this song, like, IN LOVE.
  4. Bad Habit
    The Kooks
    I have no idea why I even clicked on this video, but I absolutely fell in love. It’s fun, it’s nice. *poker face* The middle finger she gives the webcam in the last scene though? She needed to have it uncovered for that to be effective. And after the whole video, all I can say is… Girl wore a white shirt without a bra. Can you imagine how courageous she must be?! xD (I’m so awkward oh my god.)
  5. Girls Like Girls
    Hayley Kiyoko
    “WOW.” This was the only thing I could manage after hearing and seeing it. One of the commentators said, “Why isn’t this a movie?” and I cannot agree more.
  6. Closer
    Nine Inch Nails
    My boyfriend suggested the song. “It’s about sex.” Haha, we have funny conversations. xD To be honest, it is a cool song. I loved it.
  7. Follow You
    Bring Me The Horizon
    So, I think this might be the first song I have heard by this particular band, I came across it while listening to some playlist on YouTube, I guess. It is really good, you should check it out.
  8. Girls/Girls/Boys
    Panic! At The Disco
    I don’t know, I really don’t.
  9. Toxic
    Yael Naïm
    Her voice is captivating. Gorgeous, if I may. The music gives it an eerie feel, but does not overdo it. I love it!
  10. Training Wheels
    Melanie Martinez
    It is a lovely little piece, and could not wait to hear it everytime I switched my laptop on.

Well, that’s it! Tell me in the comments if you will consider listening to the songs I have put on here/or have listened already, and if that’s the case, tell me how you liked them!

Love,
Sky xoxo.

P.S.: I do not think anybody is waking up early tomorrow. 😛

First Day of Senior Year.

Okay, I beg forgiveness for yet another unforeseen hiatus. I know I am terrible at this regularly posting thing, but to be very honest, I have had a ton of stuff going on in the recent times.

So, as the post might suggest ( :P), today was my first day of twelfth grade. Some others may know it as Senior Year.

So, woah. I am in twelfth grade now. In a year’s time, I would be applying to colleges all over everywhere, and praying that I get accepted in a half decent place. Also sitting for competitive exams (which does not make a lot of sense, because… all I wanna do, is study a normal biology bachelor’s course. I am not sure, but I do not think many colleges have entrance exams for that…)

Moving on.

We had an extremely hectic day; with double chemistry, math, physics, double math (3 math periods in a day – dead), and chemistry practicals. It was not that bad, but it was still super hectic, and I hate the fact that I will have to push myself harder than ever before. I joined classes for chem and physics (I used to go for math in eleventh), but I am not sure if I should continue. I mean, should I just study by myself? Would that be okay? I don’t know, and that is really sad.

This is just a normal post, sort of like a What’s Happening In My Life Right Now post. I do hope to bounce back in the blogging game, and will try to post at least once or twice a week. I do have some ideas for posts, so that should be nice. I have a lot of things I can talk about.

I should probably sign off now, seeing as I have to sleep. I am going to wake up early tomorrow and study. This is all for today, goodnight folks! (Or whatever is appropriate for your timezone!)

Loads of love,
Sky xoxo.

P.S.: I am thinking of starting a new thing where I list new songs I have found throughout the week and have added to my music library. I will probably post it immediately after this, as I have found several cool songs in the past few days! I always get excited when I discover new artists and songs, but sometimes am sad when my friends do not share the same enthusiasm for it like I do. Perhaps somebody else on here might!